Get up, eat, work, eat, work, cook, eat and sleep….days by days…..usually I have my moments where I think and re-think and have something in my mind, or sometimes I have something different from the routine that had happened, or something significant which is not deep but worth bringing up or writing down, but I don’t have anything now. I can accept that my life is not always exciting but recently my head has been so empty and so has my soul that I got a bit “panic” (but only when I am doing a reflection on this), thinking and wondering “hell….have I already got to the stage of having thought through everything or just being so well settled with myself?”

“Meditation”…..I found this is probably the word that might describe my state of mind. The things are going through my head…I acknowledged them but not engaged myself into them….I don’t need a special time or special place or sitting with a special pose to do meditation, I have it at every moment, when I eat, when I cook, when I work or when I am asleep. I am feeling light, but at the same time I am feeling quite secure. It’s a state that I would rather describe it as “feeling nothing” other than simply “feeling happy about myself”.