Well the article I did was about how to introduce the ecological analysis into children’s free play. I was used to do such kind of topic quite well and I could do it all day and all night one year ago. Don’t ask me how I did it, I guess I was just crazy. But not any more!!! No….I find it extremely boring and too theoretic to be really sensible and to be understood by any normal human being. At the end of day, I found underneath its logical cover there are only no more than 5 sentences worth reading and really count, but the number of references given by this 7 pages article go far beyond 20.

Don’t get me wrong. I respect any researcher who puts his/her heart into in and works really hard to explore the mysteries in any unknown domians of this world because I was one of them and I know how people do the work, present their findings and write an essay. Everything is systematically and structurally well built, and we have too much things not allowed to say in this or that certain way, and we are not given a permission to show any emotion when we are doing it. That’s exactly what I saw in the article I just had translated. It was an author or a researcher who is highly required a strong passion on his or her topic but prohibited to show his or her feelings. S/he ended up being an academic machine producing lifeless facts or truths only because s/he is doing some bloody scientific business.

I am giving in. The work made me realise that how much I have gotten sick of this kind of stuff. No matter I admit it or not, I found that I am no longer a person for that and I am no longer a person who can be impressed by that way of talking and writing. I don’t know why it was like that, I mean suddenly I got to know it is not something I want and I could enjoy. But with every word I read through my work, I became more and more certain of how I felt about it. To be honest, there is no fun!!