I have never been so popular in my job seeking history. I had four companies calling me for a further interview in the last week including some employers I could only have met in my dreams. The most interesting thing is, comparing to what I have experienced in the last year (at that time I was like a GouBuLi Baozi, a kind of Chinese bun that even the dogs would not pay attention), I am apparently a different person from who I was. I am thinking what caused such a big change? and what brought me all this kind of chances during the last 12 months?

I can figure out many factors to answer these questions through my logical reasoning process, such as my 10 months of experience in ASA, my well-integrated resume and the statement addressing the selection criteria, or my dramatically increasing English or confidence, but none of them will really make me feel strong and powerful if I don’t really think I am “Big” and “The one” who can make all this happen. So what has really changed since then? Not the continuingly accumulated work experience, not my accent, not my organizational skills…It is my ATTITUDE, my attitude to be ready to win and lose, my attitude to behave actively and positively, my attitude to try and fight, my attitude to carefully make a plan and follow it precisely with a calm heart, and my attitude to accept the failures at any time.

I do get anxious and sometimes feel very painful to even just think about the situation I am actually in, but I told myself it’s going to be only a temporary period in my whole life and I am being offered an opportunity to develop my endurance which needs my sacrifice, so I’d better take it, with a graceful manner, rather than taking it like a pathetic coward. Sometimes I could suddenly feel very frightened when I look at the past or imagine the worst things that might happen in the future, then I had to simply shut down for a moment; but the hopes always exist before I get any final result, so I sit up and look forward to the good.

I feel like I am growing up, but I couldn’t just simply tell people “this is a kind of rewarding experience” without an actual job offer in my hand. However, I very much know that there is something happening in my heart, something pretty much like a recenly released album’s theme I saw outside a music shop, “get rich or die trying”.