The stair from the first floor to the second in our place is not a long walk, but doing it at almost 11 o’clock at the night and after seen the movie “SUBLIME”, became extremely hard. Actually after that movie, I felt quite sick, and fearful as well. I was knitting at the same time when watching it, but I was not sure knitting was something interested me more than that movie or just a good excuse to get my eyes away from what I see from the television.

It was a unique and inspiring movie, but I hated it very much. The whole idea, to me, was too painful to take as I felt that all my happy thoughts about this world had all been ruined by this movie. The worst nightmare that people could imagine were disclosed without mercy in the horrible scenes and it looks like what you fear the most actually haunts you and tortures you till the last minute of your life, like being unfairly treated and become a victim of medical mistakes; your daughter turns out a lesbian; your son is obsessed with abnormal, cruel and witchy human experiments and even takes advantage of his father; your loving wife betrays you and got laid with someone you hate; you lost your leg, and been cruelly cut the tendons between your fingers and toes by a black African-American devil. Look, I am a very ordinary person who always assumes and looks at the good side exists in my life, even the bad things do happen, like most of people out there do. I really can’t feel comfortable to accept the concept that this movie tries to convey that the world goes wrong to its worst situation and we had no power to save it unless at the end we choose to hit the ground after experiencing nasty falling and falling and falling.

To be honest, I can’t figure out where the movie actually is taking us to. But apparently, they tried to make one thing clear that is we are not supposed to sus out if one is happy by looking into their eyes. People sufferer by the way we don’t know. It’s not a good idea to assume what is real and what is not. What’s going though people’s mind, and what they are actually thinking and experiencing, remains a mystery and unknown. And what’s in our minds is just our kindest expectation and imagination for the best, which often takes innocent people to the hell.

Well that is my thoughts. The funny thing I realised was that I actually refused to think about this movie right after I’ve seen it, but a while later, it got me think more than I thought I would. And it keeps me going like this. The more I thought about it, and more I started to make a sense of it.

I would not recommend this movie to any young person under his/her 25 years old. And neither to anyone who likes to dwell in his/her little dream about this imperfect but still nice world and no intention to look out about the dark side of the reality, like me