The past several weeks’ hotness made me reluctant to go out to look after my plants. How many times I looked through the kitchen window and saw them standing there droopy like a poor ignored kid. I just wasn’t in the mood watering, driving off annoying flies and other insects or simply being out there looking.

Chilies are supposed to love hot days and humidity, but growing in an environment of a plastic pot, I found it very hard to make this sort of hot weather enjoyable for a tiny little life. They always look very dry and the whole stem often wilt in the hot sun. I almost had to give water every day in those days with temperature above 35 degrees.

The plants are still surviving and growing, and the fruits continuously maturate and turn their colour from green to purple, now to bright lemon yellow. I knew in about a couple of weeks, they would still be there, even I care no longer and look after them badly.

Technically speaking, I could have picked the fruits now, but I want to wait till they become fully mature and turn into cherry red colour. It seems a very long process from sowing to current status (already has been 4 months) and I know I am actually running out of my gardening energy with the summer comes to its very end.

Now, the hope becomes obviously foreseeable and the goal seems certainly achievable. I am full of guilt with losing my perseverance and also losing my initial interest. I don’t know if I should be the one for blame.